brian died thursday. that is not a dream. sadly it is a reality that i am having to face everyday now. so just to give you a bit of a summary of what happened in the days before my dream (nitemare is more like it) thursday i had esp. so while i was sitting in esp enjoying my quality time after school doing work while brian was at his house thinking that he could not live with his grades and what was going on in his life. friday morning during morning announcements, i hear the principal's monotone voice say "for those of you that do not know ::insert garbbled voice:: died yesterday. please pray for his friends and family as they go through these hard times. so i turn around and ask lydia what he had said and she said "brian ::insert last name here:: died. i starting crying. we were friends a couple of years ago and shared a class this year. i wonder if he will ever know how much he effected my life. anyways, i digress. on with the dream.
i was at church and ricky was sitting on the middle and i was sitting on to his right and i looked over and brian was sitting there (with a black tshirt on if it matters) and he looked over at me and of course i didn't want to be like "hey, i thought you were dead. what are you doing here?" so i just didn't say anything. so he came over to me and i was like "you know.. i tryed to kill myself once." and he just goes "cool." now, from the angle i was looking at him, you never would have known that he had shot himself. so anyways, i told kathy that brian was here and she looked over at him and then at me and goes, "heather, if you look he has only two fingers on one hand and two on the other." for some reason this scared me and i just started freaking out. so i went over to where amy was sitting and was just like "let's go downstairs. now!" and so we went downstairs, but jenna, jeffery, jon, and brian followed us. brian was walking down the stairs, but he couldn't hold his head up and it was just sort of hanging down. so anyways, we got downstairs and there were lots of people from school ther (matt, julie, ect) and so amy and i tried to lose brian but for some reason he could float and he could get ahead of us. so we were all running up the stairs and somehow got to a third floor of the church and brian was standing with his back towards an open window and the last thing i remember before i woke up was him falling out the window.
