Im living at home again (which in itself would be a nightmare, but there is more) amd Im getting in my
brother's jeep to go for a drive with him and his best friend Mark. We drive, we drive and we drive some more. Drive drive drive...... Suddenly it is daylight, and we're driving on the highway. Im in the passanger seat, and Mark, in the backseat sits on the edge of the backseat, so he's really close, and he takes his pants off, which freaks me out, but I dont really feel justified in making any sort of drastic verbal response, so I kind of laugh and look out the window. Then my brother pulls off the highway, and we're going down this deserted, dirt road that is surrounded by woods.
I am nervous at this point.
I feel dread.
I feel out of caontrtol.
But I dont want to let on that I feel this way, so Im just looking out the window.
The car is silent.
And than we are stopped, we're out of the car. My
brother takes his pants off, and is masturbating, and he's looking at me. They both want me to do things.
One thought is going through my head. A furious, hysterical, dumbfounded "BUT YOURE MY BROTHER, MY BROTHER !!!!!! "
