He called me up one day and told m that we needed to talk. I said okay an then he starts yelling at me, saying that he "can't do this anymore." I stared crying and he told me to shut up and let him finish. He listed off everyting tha I hate about myself, saying that he hated it too. Then he told me that I'm really not that beautiful and said that he just hadn't wanted me to kill myself but now he didn't care. Then he said goodbye in a cheery voice and hung up.
I cried and paced back and forth. Ican't remember what happened between me crying and me going onto the computer... But... Well.. I did... And there were emails from his friends harassing me and telling me that he doesn't love me. I cried and was in front of a camera, talking to it. I ws making a video for Aaron, detailing on how much I loved him and wanted him to at least talk to me one time on AIM... It was for his birthday, I assume, because I said it was May 20th.
Then I came up with a plan to kill myself, telling him that I had been counting down to the 2nd of June for a while... Saying that it will b in 13 days, only he wasn't coming but I would make sure that my family invited him. Then I looked at the camera and said, "I have always loved you," before turnin it off. Then I was on the phone wth someone, it must have been my birthday from the balloons and shit... Aaron knocked on the screen door, holding the video.
I hung up and stared at him. He broke te video in half, I started crying... He came in and said, "Do it now and get it over with." I went to get a knife but he grabbed my arm. He asked, "What are you doing?" And I said that he ated me to kill myself. He said that I should bitch him ut now because he could only stay for a few hours. I hugged him and hissed his cheek... And he said he loved me.
