In the corridors. On my way to class. The lights were on dim, I could not see. Not as good as I wanted to. So I take the lid off my eraseable pen and use it to toggle some switch in the hallway. The lights go on but an alarm goes off.
I look around.
I am strangely one of like..three white people walking in the hallway. The boy from Finding Forrester walks up to me..says Way To Go! Or something like that and I'm going to get caught.
He is walking so fast, almost to fast for me to be able to catch up.
I try talking to him...he is sorta my friend but I am an Outsider and we both know it is not good for him to associate with me. But there is a gleam in his eye. I like him. He likes me.
So we run.
Allll over. Upstairs, downstairs, thru offices, past teachers, zig-zagging in and out of the crowds. I almost lost him a few times, I remember being desparate to hold onto his hand, but these people are coming after me..this man in jeans and white conerse all stars.
And we run. Jesus Fuck do we run and I make it outside and I'm almost across the street...and I have to go the rest of the way alone for some reason and I almost make it and this guy in the allstars grabs me and drags me away.
I kick.
I scream.
I yell.
Forrester Boy yells out..his friends all come, try to get me, but it is to late. I've been dragged away.
I remember staring across the front lawn of the school...this moment of agaonizing pain..separation, and Forrester Boy just stood there, he couldn't do anything and his friends got there too late.
I am knocked unconsious.
I wake up..this guy is trying to rape me. My leg hurts, there is a giant..like mother fucking HUGE syringe on the ground..I'm laying in a driveway, by a van, this guy is on top of me. My leg hurts because he jabbed me with something. What was in the needle?
I start to feel high. Like..heroin high. Sink into the ground high..want to have sex high. Very odd. The guy is touching me and whispering to me about how I'm going to make him such a good wife and if I'm good he won't share me and won't hurt me. In my head I'm freaking out. I want to escape, I can't be here. I need to escape but whatever drug he gave me...it is weerd. It made me want him. It made me want him to hurt me and to rape me and I told him so and he laughed.
So I lay there, the guy unbuttons his pants and is shoving my pants down and I am like..THIS CAN NOT HAPPEN!
So I start crying and begging please, please, I want this, oh yes I do, but not here. Not now. Not in the driveway while your friend watches. I want it to be special. It will be my first time.
He buys it.
Calls me special. Pretty. His girl. Kisses my tears away. Pushes my hair behind my ears. Helps me get my pants on.
Starts telling me how I am going to be such a good mother to the babies.
Babies? I ask.
Yes. Babies. I am too young to have my own babies and he doesn't want me marred by the marks of pregnancy so I will never have my own, just raise other peoples.
Aparently I am down with that, I get into the back of the van There are babies in the van. 2 of them. I coddle them.
The guy who's wife I am going to be is happy at this, this is a Good Sign. His friend is ugly. His beard is long. He lears at me. This frightens me. Rape Guy can tell his and pats me on the leg and tells his friend to can it.
We drive away.
I am taken to this underground compound. I am there a year until I manage to escape.
It turns out that the compound I was in was UNDER sthe school..I get out..and there is Forrester Boy...he recognizes me. Tearful reunion. Lots of kissing. He has to be careful when he hugs me. I've been beaten, my arms hurt.
An alarm goes off.
Men from the compound storm the building. Students are herded into these...bank vaults to protect them. Forrester and I get separated. I want to cry.
I get in my vault..some how the school staff know who I am and what has happened, they want to protect me but once locked in the vault, I recognize my 'husband' and his bearded friend.
They smirk at me. Leer at me. There eyes challenge me to say something. They ..they snuck in so that when the rest of the men from the compound were arrested, they could escape..say they were just one of many visitors to our school.
I start to scream my accusations...Rape guy..turns red and sputters out a denial.
I rage on and on about the children they've raped, the women they've hurt, the small boys they've forced into slavery...people move away from them. Mothers grab onto there children. They try to deny it and can't.
Finally we are let out. I am the first out of the vault. Security grabs Rape guy and his bearded friend.
I run into the sunshine, looking frantically for Forrester Boy ...and there he is;)
I run across the lawn of the school and before I can get to him, a secret service agent comes up to me and asks me to come away with him for questioning, but I'm afraid I'm never going to see Forrester Boy after this and I refuse. The guy starts to drag me away.
Out of nowhere, Forrester Boys friends pour into the area....some how they keep the SS guy away from me long enough to get to Forrester and he snuggles me up in a huge hug. Now I will go talk to the SS guy but I refuse to go alone.
