Author: *~:erin:~*





i tried i tried

i swear

i'm sorry

it happened again

i fell asleep with the hopes of

pleasant dreams

i know it was naive

but for once i'd like it to happen

just once



**fade to simple scene**



there's a girl sitting

in front of a computer screen

she is me



**crying**



she signs off

and goes into her room

reaches under her bed

and grabs a small wooden box

she opens it

just to see if they are all still there

they are

she walks downstairs

it is late

nobody is awake

one light on

she goes down to the basement

and strips down to nothing

she stares at herself in the mirror

and turns away

she gets into the shower

and takes the box with her

and turns on the water

nice and hot, they way she likes it



**steam rising looks like smoke**



she opens the box again

and draws out a knife

it was her father's set

nobody knew she had it

they thought it had been thrown away

she thinks out loud

they'll know

soon enough



**smiles**



she pushes back her bracelets

she looks at the bluish purple veins

below the skin

chooses backward 7

and then it is over



**slash**



**slash**



her deed is done

as she watches the blood

swirl with the water

crimson river

she watches her life

go down the drain

again thinking out loud

i never said goodbye

she falls

knife still in hand

and dies



**awakes**