Author: *~:erin:~*





these dreams fill my head

what do they mean

i was killed four times last night

twice by you

it scares me

because i know you'd never do that

or would you



**sobs**



i dont' know what to think of it



**fade to clear fall day**



**two young people in love

out for a day alone**



you chased me through the woods

a playful romp on a crisp autumn day

the sun shining bright in your eyes



**laughter**



and looking up was fireworks

in reds and orange

and something went wrong

you caught me

and there was something different

about your eyes

it scared me

and i took off

you came running after me

and held me down

in the fallen leaves



**screams**



the rest unimaginable

the last i saw

was shiny steel

in my heart and blood everywhere



**fades to black**



i woke up screaming

i thought i wouldn't sleep again last night

i did somehow



**fade to a bedroom

with posters and lights

typical teenager's room**



**faint music playing in the background**



together

curled up on my bed

we were talking about

all those little things we love

about each other

you tickled me



**giggles**



and there was nothing wrong with the world

and simple kisses

went too far and

now you had me in the one place

i never wanted to be again

you held me there

and i didn't feel safe anymore



**music crescendoes**



i screamed and screamed

and nobody helped

nobody was home



**pan over scene**



i was no longer in myself

i watched you do this

i turned away

when you knocked me unconcious

when i looked back

you were hunched over me

your head in your hands

bloody hands

bloody fingers

and you kissed me

hoping to take it back

too late



**crying**



you screamed

and i felt like i had just died

when i heard this uttered from your lips

'erin i love you

and i never meant....

forgive me erin

oh god what have i done

erin i'm sorry

i'm sorry

i'm sorry'

of course i had

the blood around me was spreading quickly

you ran your fingers through my hair

you looked into my eyes

i saw fear

love

self hatred

sorrow

and so on

you laid your head on my chest

and wept

and with my final breaths

i said

you are forgiven

and i love you

always and forever

even through death

the last i saw

was you



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